Hello Mammogram. So Nice to Meet You.

So, last week I had my 'annual' mammogram.

The first one since my cancer diagnosis.  (I did have a mammogram on the morning of the surgery to remove the lump -- but that one doesn't count because its purpose was to guide the insertion of 'guide wires' to assist the surgeon in identifying the outer edges of the tumor.)

The routine is to wait six months after the finish of radiation treatment.  

And now I know why.

Because it takes a long long time after radiation is over for the tissue to recover from the inflammation.  And mine has not.  Recovered.  From the inflammation.

OUCH!

This time, I did not go alone.

Don took the day off of work to accompany me for my tests. 

Much to the confusion of Kathy, the ultrasound technician, I insisted that Don be allowed to accompany me into the mammogram room.  Husband education day! (Surely, others have brought moral support?)

Kathy was wonderful.  She explained that, after a diagnosis of breast cancer, diagnostic mammograms are done for the next five years.  A diagnostic mammo is different in that more photos are taken, and greater magnification is used.  

She asked if I'd like to see the pictures.

So, after each compression, I went back to her computer and compared the picture with the same pose from last year.

And I saw the cancer clearly on last year's picture.

It was not there on this year's picture.

Gone.

Thank God.

I explained to Kathy about the new lump I have felt.  She arranged for a diagnostic ultrasound to be done immediately.

The ultrasound technician had me pinpoint the lump.  And he went over it again and again with the ultrasound to see if there was anything there.

The radiologist doctor (who is remaining unnamed in this tirade) came in.  

He introduced himself to me and said how pleased he was to meet me. 

I think, to myself, "um, hello?  You met me last year and gave me the worst day of my life.  You don't remember me?"  Really.  

I know, I know.  He sees many patients every day.  But doesn't my chart tell him that he did the core biopsy?  That I would feel so much better if he came in and said "Hello, Drenda.  I am happy to see you again.  How are you doing?"  That I would think I was safe and in good hands if he remembered?  

But he did have good news.  He said the mammogram results were entirely NORMAL.  And then he went over the new lump again and again with the ultrasound.  NOTHING IS THERE.

"Drenda, I see nothing suspicious or of concern.  Everything is fine.  If the lump changes, let us know.   Otherwise, I'll see you next year."

Thank God.

Thank God.

I am getting near the end of 'cancer'.

I can feel it.

There is nothing there.